doubts

I have the opposite problem for tomorrow night's even then I had last week. Last week? An overabundance of leaders and 5 kids. This week? Not enough drivers. A welcome problem to have, but entirely too last minute for my nerves. Of course, tomorrow night may come and kids will forget and this stress will have passed along.

But, I'm sitting here and feeling increasingly stressed about finding a driver, knowing that the front end of my day is eaten up by meetings. And I'm doubting. Doubting that a rides will be figured out. Praying that prayer of the desperate "oh God oh God oh God...how is this going to work out?" And I'm realizing, when I place all of the emphasis on me figuring out the drivers I deny a larger power. I need to learn to trust, to trust that it will all work out. Not necessarily to trust that God will tie everything together for me, but I do trust that God is at work, and that I am empowered to make good calls and right decisions...and that I have been called to this position at this time. That is something to hope for, to remind myself to banish the doubts away.