doubts

I have the opposite problem for tomorrow night's even then I had last week. Last week? An overabundance of leaders and 5 kids. This week? Not enough drivers. A welcome problem to have, but entirely too last minute for my nerves. Of course, tomorrow night may come and kids will forget and this stress will have passed along.

But, I'm sitting here and feeling increasingly stressed about finding a driver, knowing that the front end of my day is eaten up by meetings. And I'm doubting. Doubting that a rides will be figured out. Praying that prayer of the desperate "oh God oh God oh God...how is this going to work out?" And I'm realizing, when I place all of the emphasis on me figuring out the drivers I deny a larger power. I need to learn to trust, to trust that it will all work out. Not necessarily to trust that God will tie everything together for me, but I do trust that God is at work, and that I am empowered to make good calls and right decisions...and that I have been called to this position at this time. That is something to hope for, to remind myself to banish the doubts away.

what a weekend

Can it really be true that another weekend has come and gone already, only leaving me with work in the morning? Let's recap, shall we? I suspect that this was one of those so sweet weekends filled with everything and nothing.

Friday began with a meeting at work (I know, right?). From there I visited Dan at work and tried to decide if I wanted a cheap computer. After deciding that, no, $50 was too much to pay for that particular Mac, I gave Dan the scalding cup of coffee I brought him and headed home. I felt that the day was successful in that I found a way to our bank that doesn't require a jaunt on the highway. It seems trivial, but since I usually go midafternoon on a Friday, the highways are usually jammed with commuters trying to get up to the cabin before rush hour begins. This accomplishment is a success and I like that I am learning more about driving around in downtown St. Paul. I suppose that I should feel an accomplishment for celebrating 8 months of marriage (I figure everything is celebratory under a year), and I do. I'll take what I can get!

Saturday was filled with a trip to the farmer's market, a relaxing morning at home and then trekking off to Borders to hear David Sedaris read from his new book. Dan had told me that if I saw anything I should get it. I showed remarkable restraint and only found 3 books that I wanted. He really could have regretted those kind, kind instructions. A steak dinner and a walk to the Dairy Queen and much laundry rounded out our evening.

Sunday was a senior's graduation open house and the weather was beautiful. I didn't think that it would be outside (silly Kate) and am now, of course, sunburned. I'm the bearer of strange lines on my arm, but not my face. I did say a little prayer of thanks that I remembered my moisturizer with spf in it. Proof positive that a little preventative action is a good thing. We saw Kung Fu Panda with friends, played some Mario Party and ended the weekend watching MonsterQuest. Now, if you will excuse me. I have to brush my teeth and tuck myself in with "At Home In Mitford" (not one of the books I purchased, but I also came clean on my overdue library account this weekend and I am once again a patron in good standing. Go me!).

Onward to another week of time with amazing students. Summer is really and truly here.

tape sculptures

I saw the idea for tape sculptures a few months ago on Marko's blog. I knew that I wanted to try them out at some point, probably for a SWIFT. Check out one of our junior high group's creations:


It is in fact the torso of one of our boys and the leg of another's for a head. There were challenges in dealing with the attention span of junior high boys (the girls could have spent the entire evening working on this...just an observation, not a comment on gender in particular), but some of them really got into it. We covered kid's bodies with saran wrap and then layers upon layers of packing tape. We eventually stuffed the inside of them with some newspaper to give it some extra bulk before we took them to a park to photograph.

Other than that, May and the first week of June has been a complete blur. I'm digging out of my office after a hectic week following a week of vacation. More meaningful posts to follow, I think.