I'm in that phase of having to do what I don't like to do at work: project things onto a summer calendar. Trying to figure out what worked last year and what didn't. I'm decidedly trying to ensure that these dates are ones that we stick firm to in order to avoid some of the snafus from last year. Arranging those meetings is stressful and tiring. I feel like I'm spinning my wheels just to stay in place.

For the last month and a half, I've been attending worship planning meetings. I've enjoyed it, for the most part, and felt that it's using a different skill set and allowing me some creativity I don't get to tap into generally. Come the advent of the worhip design team and the role the worship pastor had wanted me to play on the worship planning team is being removed and I am now an "email your thoughts in" member of this design team. Does the change free me up, give me one less meeting a month (and less worship planning meetings) which allow me to focus on my role as youth minister? -- definately. Does it also feel somewhat like a slap in the face to be encouraged and then get assigned a lateral position that I don't really feel fits me? Yeah, definately. In any case, I'm still trying to discern how I feel about it. I'm mostly just wondering why they were so eager to have me be on the worship planning team if they knew this was coming down the pipe so soon (which it seems like the case).

All this to say, I'm at work. Trying to focus. Trying to plan. Trying for this to not be a huge pain in the neck (which I don't need, because all my stress already goes to my shoulders.) These last days of being 23, they are trying times.